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July 11 The real, the deep , the way things areA candle loses nothing by lighting another candle
Erin Majors
A man dies daily, only to be reborn in the morning, bigger, better and wiser.
Emmett Fox
A single conversation across a table with a wise man is worth a month's study of books
Chinese proverb
A single moment of understanding can flood a whole life with meaning.
Unknown Author
One man all by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world.
Hans Margolius
The way life is - from the side linesHere are some of life's lessons I've learnt so far... July 01 Quoates from Balthasar GracianWatch out for those who act on second thought
It is a device of business people to put the opponent off his gaurd before attacking him, and thus to conqueur by being defeated. They dissemble their desire so as to attain it. They put themselves second so as to come out first. This method rarely fails if it is not noticed. Let therefore the attention never sleep when the intention is so wide awake. And if the other puts himself second so to hide his plan, put yourself first to discover his plan. Prudence can discern the artifices that such a man uses, and notices the pretexts he puts forward to gain his ends. He aims at one thing to get another, then he turns round smartly and fires straight at his target. It is good to know what you grant him, and at times it is desirable to let him understand that you understand
June 29 my heart on my sleeve I have been told i wear my heart on my sleeve - and i suppose i am the what u see is what u get type of person.
So now that i'm freshly single and am looking at my sleeve i think its finally time to put my heart away in side because it seems pretty beaten up - but that is so much harder to do when the hole time in my 15yrs of dating i've always had it out side .
Is it so hard to fall in love get married , have the 2 and half kids with the little house and the 2 dogs , why is it that , that is what most people want in life and we all just battle to get it or keep it. Why do we all hurt eachother . Everyone has been hurt by someone they love but i think some people over feel their emotions and the here and now, and some people are just simply put - emotionally retarded and just cant feel - they are like walking robots just going through the motions of "love" - almost pretending - they do not look over at their spouse or significant other in the morning and say i'm so happy to have some one in my bed that i love they just look at them for what they reprasent - a hot wife - a rich husband - trophy - a pay check !!!! At what point do u realize or do most people realize its not about that but about a partner that is not a paycheck or a trophy but that ur ideal partner should be someone u want to spend hours talking to and being emotionally intamate with and someone that is on the same intellectual level as u and the same emotional level.
People under estimate emotional intellegence - its a huge factor i think in any realationship - some people are just built and have learnt more emotions and different aspects of emotions were as others have never had their emotional intellect seriously challenged and hence havent had to grow - and sometime hey i wish i was emotionally retarted - i think it would hurt less and might be easier to feel less than to feel SO much - even though in the same breath i have to say i love being emotional and passionate it is fantasitic feeling everything in full 150% full colour emotions when things are good and magical but what a ride when u come off the cloud - its almost like cocaine i would think - u have ur uppers and ur downers, when its good its really good and when its bad its hell
Well i'm just old fashioned i geuss - looking for my little farm house of a nest egg to hatch my future brood of kids. To have my dogs and stables full of horses - ok horse are optional - and the husband that will be in love with idea of being in LOVE with his WIFE - what a novilty in this day and age - and a man who is in love not just with his wife but his kids and his life ! And Mr perfect who will get up in the middle of the night and take the kid off my hands . But the main thing being that he can actually express his love and his emotions and treat me like a queen and his queen making me and our lives together his number one priority and as a result i would and do love back in return 500% more than what i'm given - giving up my hole life to make sure my man is as happy as what he would make me happy - is it so hard to make the person u are love with and have declared ur love to happy - the answer should be NO its easy - but how come it is then so hard to move heaven and earth for some one u LOVE - ur love should give u the power to do that which u think will make ur love happy and stronger.
My question to the universe is why dont we move heaven and earth anymore for our loves of our live - how come we do not love one person any more and burn a candle for that one person anymore - why have relationships become so trivial - why are marridges so disposable - why are kids fourced into ugly divorce stituations . Like in the knickle back song - if every one cared and no body lied then we would see the day that nobody cried - but tears are constantly flowing and i think flowing more than they ever have before . Life seems so intense yet life has been become so cheep and disposable .
June 27 the future & the pastWell a couple of weeks have past and basically the house is finally sold - well money is not in the bank yet and its only techically gone when that happens right. So right - here to from here - The future who knows what it holds - hopefully happier stress free days - maybe a trip to Frankfurt and the german french wine route will be a nice de-stressor and who knows maybe I meet a sexy sailor along the way and have lots of babies with him and put them in leader hosen - ah ha. Yup the wine has kicked in people.
Well i am finally single mr perfect from a few months ago - well yup u geussed it not so perfect - jerk off. Isnt it funny every time u put something like that in writting - it F****S out . So here we are - i'm 30 recovering from surgery issues - still - but thank goodness coming right - but think the cancer in my life is gone - the ex - and thats the big helper. My best friend has left the country for OZ - another one bights the dust. We all say we LOVE africa - but we all leave at the drop of a hat - dont blame anyone - i'm also a desserter. Hey but put it this way for every one of brain drainers that leaves - unemployment goes down - yup from 89% to 88%. OOH full of good thoughts tonight.
Not to sure what to do with the one main love of my life my pup desiel - he needs a good home if i leave and it kills me this dog could teach some men some leasons in life . Seriously they should take notes - the love that some animals have to give is incredable. Its so unconditional and beautiful . I've never had a huge dog like this before - he loves to give his mom cuddles so cute and when i'm all pathetic and lonely he comes and lies on my feet or nudges me till i cheer up. Well he's special - if u met him u'd say the same thing - provided ur a dog person.
The past got a bit sentimental i think i miss my family over seas - only my mom dad sis and bro here - so hence posted some new family pics really nice old black and white once. Each one is so special to me - my grandfather is dead so those of him are extra special - granny still kicking - she's got bigger social life than me - at 75 - go granny, shes cool old chick - still has her own business and in full control of her sences - not bad if i turn out like her at 75 .
So yes that all for now - the bitch session will continue another night when i'm on my 3rd gls of wine and had a shitty day. June 03 selling upSelling up and moving on is a bit gut wrenching for me at the moment but a evil i will over come. I've come very attached to my home and am sad to sell but the money from the house will float me till i get a job and all my visa stuff sorted in Canada or china - which ever comes first - i've actually decided i'm not to fussed were i will be before Canada as long as i'm making a little money and have minumal stress.
Packing up is hard really hard - especially when you set your mind on being here for longer, but i must press on in my mission to see new things and go were life takes me.
No kids yet so i'm pretty free to move around and hopefully not long now till one arrives but thats all wishfull thinking for now i geuss.
All i want now is less stress more play and happiness and freedom
May 23 I am outa hereWell with change of season come change of heart in a way. I've decided to go to China for about 3-6mths while i wait for a work visa for canada and will be teaching english ( me who is dislexic and cant spell (ha ha )) to chinnese. I'm packing up my house and my home and leaving SA due to Pandelis being attached and it just not doing it for me here anymore. I think a change will do us well and we are about embark on the great exiduse from Africa - like everyone else!!! My best friend is going to Aus and a long time old school friend is going to Dubai and it just seems like everyone keeps leaving . So we are gonna join the band wagon - we're heading to vancouver, Canada not aus or NZ like everyone else .
So if any one has any contacts in canada or china please let me know ! I'm looking for work !!!!
Thanks April 20 A couple days in my kitchen bakingi have been cooking hectically trying out serveral recipes, i found the perfect royal icing recipe complements of Nigella Lawson
I have also been trying out different bread recipes using a basic flour, water and yeast recipe. then seeing which tastes nicer , just adding oil or oil and egg or just egg. I found using just egg was the nicest it stayed freshers longer and was soft on the inside.
I also made a really cool pastitio the other night, like a lazania except u use penne pasta and the mince is sort of just layed in and around the pre prepared penne pasta. the mince too is prepared in a pan but before addin the mince i blizzed some carrots and red onions together and threw them in the pan and fried them a little to this i added garlic and some cinnamon and a little nutmeg.
To the beshamel sause i added some cream cheese nutmeg garlic and olive, rosmary salt, i made the beshamel with semonlina flour.
I still dont understand what i'm doing wrong regarding baking cupcakes and cakes? i always get bump in the middle almost like a second rise and my cakes and cupcakes are never level and flat and evenly raised?
I've also just started some leaven - a natural yeast, what i am looking for is a good sour dough recipe? Unlike the atkinson diet i am a complete starch freek - i am addicted but i'm always looking for good starches hence playing around with rice flour oat flour semonlina flour, trying to stay away from the conventional plain white flour, which i find upsets my stomach something terrible along with my husbands tummy too.
Oh and i made a yummy terriaki fish dish, with egg noodles. To the egg noodles i added spring onions chopped and walnut oil along with sweet corn if i had peas at home that day or mung tout peas i propably would have added those too but was all out. To the terriaki fish i added pistachio's (my favourate) and sessame seeds (roasted) they just suck up the sauce.
Bizzy working on the ideal GERMAN pretzel recipe - need some input!! And how do you make Quark ?
Have a fab day March 30 My memories of foodHi Well this is my first blog!!!
And i'm doing this because I'm about to turn 30 ! I'm starting my cook book come health book, and i will be finishing my long last Homeopathy degree!!!
I'm blogging becausing i'm hoping to find some new friends and maybe get some input on life. funny when i turned 18 and left home for Europe i thought i knew everything , i thought i was street smart and knew people but as i've gotten older i only at 30 now THINK i know people. The one sad thing i've learnt is at the end of the day is every one only really really cares about themselves unless like me you have a wonderful partner who will always put you first before himself and i know that is rare and wonderful. So with all of that said and done i'm going to start my BOOK on my Memories of food and happy times .
So i'm basically looking for recipes about family and happiness and old wives cures and tales that are tested and prooven.
So Yummy times here we come , share with me what you have and what you love and i will definate mention your recipe and yourself in my book if i choose to place it in my book
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